today is a brighter day
music makes everything better
Listening to the berlin music list on the ipod offered by the hostel in a cafe. It feels good to sync to something, especially when you’re out of sync. The only thing that can make this better is the company of some older gents and dams. Basically. Doing better and :)
Chocolate & tea and catnap first. Money problems and bullshit later…zzz
Got mugged yesterday in brusseles and spent the night in shock at the police station thinking about how ‘the wolf will prey on the lamb’ and how peace will come when the lamb lies with the wolf. I should have been more of a wolf. But it was two against one anyways which made me feel more disgusted with the tainted people in the world. Reading the sermon pamphlet i got on christmas day...
Received a nagging note from my mother today reminding me to “BEHAVE MYSELF” and to “DON’T BELIEVE IN PEOPLE SO MUCH”. Funny, she didn’t believe in me when I said I needed help. And I’ve grown up listening to this paranoia, you’d think that she’s stop reminding me that people are EVIL after some twenty years. Still trying to run away…
Feeling much better today. I’m muttering a lot more to myself haha. This is how you know if i’m perky or not. I went to check out open air markets and going to check old bookshops now to get a book to snuggle with on christmas day :)
More lonely, lovesick, and restless in London than I thought I’d be after I opened an old wound and said goodbye forever.
You don't make me tremble anymore...
but I still love you. The way you hold my face when you kiss me. The way you feed me food from your plate. The way you try to hold my hand. The way you rub my fingers. The way that we were never meant to be.
Coward, The best kind of persona. Your fear, keeps you human. Your tear, running down the red-tinted cheek, Gives indication to your soul. You do not bite, like the snake that he is, Twisting the minds of innocents. Instead, You strike them with a smile, a tonic against All that is vile. My coward, You will live life forever. That evil, Shall wither and die, In the fires that it sought to...
Sadly, the christmas feeling for me hasn’t settled yet. I going to play some Christmas jingles tomorrow.
We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we...
Just because you’ve been labeled with a medical term in the past, does that make your past any more painful than mine? I know your pain still haunts you. Even if I understand these feelings, I understand more that shouldn’t say anything any more. You’re too strong for me to tackle right now. I’m not the right person to help right now. I wish you the best, because I know...
Being misunderstood because the other person doesn’t care enough to listen and interjects is one of the lonelinest and frustrating feelings. From that moment on, I completely shut myself off from you until you’ve grown to listen.
The architect represents neither a Dionysian nor an Apollinian condition: here...– Friedrich Nietzsche (via dontgetsnarky)
Talking to people reminds me why I don’t like talking to people.
Cynics are, in the end, only idealists with awkwardly high standards.– Alain de Botton, (Status Anxiety)
I can’t wait to go back home just for the gym and trader joes. I can’t wait to start running and eatting veggies and rice again ^^ Gonna get my running high and my hot body back. YES!
this is (not) psychology: Monkeysphere →
jinavie: How many friends can a person have? Believe it or not, science has solved this question. An anthropologist called Robin Dunbar studied various societies, tribes and primate groups to determine how many members a group can have to maintain stability. He discovered that the ideal…